I totally don't know what to feel right now. It's all mixed emotions! I am so excited that I will finally see him in person. I know a lot of people won’t understand long distance relationships and some even think that it is just something that really won’t last for a long time. I have even read something earlier today that long distance relationships are not allowed in certain groups in church because they believe that people change a lot and if you don't see the person face to face all the time, you will really not be able to know that person full well. I beg to disagree!
It is so hard to imagine to have not seen in person someone you love so much (or to love someone so much that you haven't met in person yet, lol). But I would like to say that IT IS POSSIBLE. Since we started dating last August of 2010, I have not seen Steve in person yet and that is not from lack of wanting or desiring to see him. We wanted to see each other so bad but there are so many priorities to choose from and many decisions to make. I need to work on my schooling while he also has some important things to do. We are not saying that seeing each other is not a priority but it’s something that we can postpone for the moment while we are trying to prepare ourselves. We really believe that it is God directing us to make those decisions. The right time will come. We just have to wait.
We have been constantly praying to God for the opportunity to see each other and most of the times the answer is NOT FOR NOW. It is sometimes hard to accept it but then we still continued to ask God that if it is not His plan for us at the moment that He should shut the door close so we can see that it is really not yet time. But if He will already give us a go signal that He will also open the door sooooo wide so we won’t have a problem seeing the opportunity.
Well, that is why I have mixed emotions is because it seems that God is already opening the door now!!! He seems to be making all things work out slowly and surely. Sure there are still some few doubts and fears on whether it will really push through now but we trust God and He said in His word that He blesses those who trust Him and He will also provide for them abundantly.
I am excited because he will be here in the first week of April! Oh my! I am excited and just looking forward to seeing him in person and look at him in the eye and tell him I love him so much!!! Please help us pray that this will push through. We have great confidence in God because He works in all things to make it work for our good. I also want to thank the people who are helping us in anyway just for us to see each other. I and Steve are indeed blessed to have such wonderful people in our lives.
I trust you in all things Father!