Worry Be Gone!

I am a die hard but not your typical type of worrier.

Yes, that's right, W-O-R-R-I-E-R (not to be confused with warrior).

A lot of people worry so much but they keep pushing through and still do things anyway.

I on the other hand is a worrier and will do my best to stay away from things that I need to do.

So I'm not just a worrier, I'm also a procrastinator.

Excellent recipe for success. NOT! 

The past three years to present are what I consider that most difficult years I've ever had in my entire 24-year life. 

And the truth is, I don't know how to make things better. 

I have been worried for so long that I don't know how to be not afraid anymore. 

It's like anytime I think I have all the courage in the world, there I go running towards my coward/worry/loser corner

over and over and over again...

It is easier to share a story of our life when we are through that chapter already.

It's easier to write a testimony and sing a song of victory if we are on the other side of the bridge.

But it is a different struggle when we are still in the battlegrounds fighting that one last enemy, 

when we are almost to the end of the chapter and 

when we are about to reach the end of the bridge. 

Trust me.

In my case, in my schooling, in my thesis writing,
I am hiding in the "comfort" of  my worry corner rather than swishing my sword for one last time
and taking a few more steps to reach the end. 

Crazy isn't it?

But I want that to change.

I do! I know how!

I just didn't want to do it for some bizarre reasons I don't even have. 

Crazy again right? 

I want to swish my sword and take that final step. 

I have been wanting to for a very looooong time. 

However, I'm realizing that I could want to do all the things in the world but if I don't make a move,

 even just one tiny nudge,
I will just keep wanting these same things over and over again until I am filled with disappointments and frustrations for not having what I want

and eventually believing I can't have it;
that I don't deserve it. 

*sigh* 

Been there. Done that. 

A lot of times. 

It's like a crazy cycle I can't get out of.

The truth is my God is an awesome God and
He is reigning from heaven above with wisdom and power and love. 

The truth is my circumstances may be different every time, but God doesn't change. 

The truth is I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. 

The thing is I am not holding on to these truths about my Father God and about my Lord Jesus. 

I have the armor of God but I am not using them properly or not using them at all. 

My sword is super rusty and as how Jessica puts it in her recent post,
"It's so dull it just tickles".

But I will try again. 

I am trying again and this time, I will hold on to these truths as if my life depends on it (it should!). 

It's not gonna be an easy road but if I want something to change, then I have to do something different. 

As what my Fiance lovingly reminded me two years ago,

 I have been consumed by the same fears/worries and I have to stop letting it consume me. 

It's the same fear I've had for years and it's  not solving anything. 

It's not gonna get my thesis done. 

Yes I didn't fail, but this fear is just postponing the great life that God has in store for me.

It has to stop.

I have committed to reading the four Gospels intensively this year so I can know more about my Lord Jesus, 

his story, 

his life,

his teachings. 

He surely has things to say to about just any problems we might have in our lives. 

As for my worries, this is what he has to say:

Are you having the same struggles like mine?

I am right here praying for you. ♥

Let us start putting our armor on and fight the good fight of faith.

Build Others Up

It's another week!
Another great verse to memorize with the beautiful ladies from She Reads Truth community!

If you are seeking for a community of godly women, I totally recommend She Reads Truth!

The verse for this week is Ephesians 4:29.

I believe it is a great reminder for me (and for you) to really guard my mouth.

My words should benefit others, not destroy them.

Here is a lock screen for you.
I'm using the NIV but if you want other versions, I can make them for you {just leave a comment}. 

Feel free to use and share.

You can also check out the lock screen from the community here.

 

Thanks for dropping by!

May God bless you!

Do not Give Up!

It's another Weekly Truth from the She Reads Truth community.

I have decided not to join in reading the plans anymore.

Wait! But before you get angry and leave my blog, let me explain. :D

Do you ever feel like you are doing something just to get the job done?

Well, that's what I felt when we started reading Proverbs.

I couldn't keep up with the reading of the girls from the community.

At first, I was like, I'll just cram and do many readings at once so I can "keep up" with the girls.

I feel happy on the outside but I felt like I'm not getting anything out of it.

I'm doing the devotional just so I can use #shereadstruth in Intsagram. 

I'm just reading it just to check that little tiny circle in the YouVersion app.

I'm reading just so I can say something in the comments.

and believe me, its hard to comment when you really don't understand what the passage meant.

And so I'll just won't comment at all. 

Then we started reading Galatians.

And the words of Paul on the first day of the reading never left my mind.

 For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man?
 If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.

Galatians 1:10

When I searched my heart on what my motivation is, I realized that I just wanted to please the girls.

I didn't realize it not until I prayed hard and asked God to tell me what am I doing wrong.

Why am I not keeping up with the girls?

Then God revealed to me that the motive of my heart was wrong in the first place.

And with lots of prayers, I came to a decision.

I will not join the community's reading plans anymore.

I will still visit the website.

Well, the idea of the group is to read His word everyday right?

So I can still be part of the community just as long as I am reading the Bible everyday. :) 

this time WHOLEHEARTEDLY! 

 I will still share how God is changing me through reading His word on She Shares.

and I will still join the Weekly Truth {and continue making lock screens}.

I will still be instagraming {if that is a word}.

With God's guidance, I will read the Bible on my own pace everyday.

He actually put in my heart to start my reading on Paul's epistles.

 No matter how many times I fail in reading His word everyday, I won't give up!

and here is a lock screen for this week's Weekly Truth.

The verse is from Galatians 6:9-10.

feel free to grab it!

I hope God is pleased with it. :)

Christ in Me

This might be already late for the weekly truth at She Reads Truth.

I left my laptop at our laboratory so I wasn't able to make a lock screen.

The verse for this week is from Galatians 2:20.

If my sisters from the community wants to use it, grab it!

I would love it if you do! :)

And yes I would love to make a lock screen of your favorite verse!

Just let me know what verse and version you like!

I'd be happy to make one for you sister!

Lock Screen Request: Proverbs 19:11

I got another request for a lock screen from my sister in She Reads Truth community.

I get really blessed when these wonderful girls request me to make something little for them.

It just means that they like what I do and that makes my heart melt.

This lady has no name and so I don't know how to tell her that I am done making her lock screen.

She chose Proverbs 19:11.

Maybe she will check the blog later and see her requested lock screen.

I hope you will like it my Anonymous sister. :)

I used ESV because I don't know what version you prefer.

But if you would like another version, then feel free to leave a comment and I'll change it for you!

God bless you sister and I hope you will like it!